In my recent book entitled
Playing Judas, I cover the biblical story of Judas in light of examining ourselves as Professing Christians. With the news of Robin Williams passing, causing many to ponder thoughts surrounding depression and suicide, I thought I'd share my chapter on suicide (specifically Judas Iscariot's suicide). In no way is this meant to be directed toward Robin Williams, or to be used as a means to say he went to hell.
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It is estimated about one million
people commit suicide each year, with depression (specifically, untreated
depression) believed to be the number one cause. Although, it is assessed that
approximately 30,000 die from suicide each year in America, there is evidence
that suggest nearly 750,000 souls attempt to take their own lives every year.
So, what would be the number of attempts worldwide? And, what of the ones we do
not know about? How many souls are leaving this world each day – each second –
which may not be ready to meet God?
And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after
this the judgment: [Hebrews 9:27]
Even if someone does not believe
in God, heaven or hell, or even an afterlife, surely one would agree that
suicide is the end of one person’s life but affects more people than just
themselves. What of those left behind? What message are we sending them in
taking our own life? Would we not be selfish in our thoughts and actions?
Should we not consider others?
Perhaps we leave our parents
feeling guilty they could not protect us from it. Maybe our children or siblings
will do the same, merely following in the footsteps of one they looked up to.
What of our spouses and friends, left with broken and meaningless relationships
we once shared? How does a church cope with the loss of one who preached or
taught faith over unbelief, hope instead of doubt, endurance through trials and
tribulations, and living for Christ, only to give up hope at the end of their
rope?
We do not live or die unto
ourselves. How we live and die affects people and society around us, whether we
realize how great or small it may be. If it merely affects one person, we
should consider how the impact may change them – and perhaps for the worse,
rather than the better. And, to claim to be a Professing Christian within the
Professing Church, we have sworn allegiance to no more live unto ourselves. We
are the Lord’s!
For none of us liveth to himself, and no man dieth to
himself. For whether we live, we live unto the Lord; and whether we die, we die
unto the Lord: whether we live
therefore, or die, we are the Lord's. For to this end Christ both died, and
rose, and revived, that he might be Lord both of the dead and living. [Romans
14:7-9]
For this portion of the book I
want to be sensitive, because of the emotions which can surround this topic
(especially if one has considered or lost someone to suicide), but I also want
to be realistic and scriptural at the same time. Sometimes how we feel does not
always line up with truth, but truth often times needs to be laced with grace
so our emotions will be able to listen. So, hopefully I can share this with
enough grace to allow the reader to at least consider it. Please remember my
purpose of this writing is to help people by learning from Judas, not hurt them
by calling them Judas. I would rather none of us be found Playing Judas.
To begin, let’s define a few
terms:
- suicide – to take one’s life intentionally
- depression – a state of sadness,
gloom, dejection
- sadness – unhappy, grief, sorrow,
mournful
- gloom – full or partial darkness,
dim
- dejection – lowness of spirits
Now, I am not an expert in
relation to suicide, all of its causes, or how to resolve one’s thoughts or
tendencies toward taking their own life. I would strongly suggest one pray to
God and read scripture, but I would also encourage one to seek out all the help
they could possibly get from family, friends, church, co-workers, groups,
doctors, therapists, etc. The more support we can get during any difficult time
in our lives the better the outcome will most likely be. But, not only do we
need to seek out wise council, we have to be willing to accept and follow sound
advice.
So, let’s take a look at suicide
and depression in the case of Judas Iscariot, and see how his sad example might
help us and others both in the physical and spiritual realm.
Then Judas,
which had betrayed him, when he saw that he was condemned, repented himself,
and brought again the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and elders,
Saying, I have sinned in that I have betrayed the innocent blood. And they
said, What is that to us? see thou to that. And he cast down the pieces of
silver in the temple, and departed, and went
and hanged himself. And the chief priests took the silver pieces, and said,
It is not lawful for to put them into the treasury, because it is the price of
blood. And they took counsel, and bought with them the potter's field, to bury
strangers in. Wherefore that field was called, The field of blood, unto this
day. [Matthew 27:3-8]
What are some possible things
which may have led Judas to suicide?
- Confronted
with sin (his embarrassment, humiliation)
- Left
the other Eleven apostles (his friends)
- Handed
over Jesus Christ (his master, teacher, spiritual leader)
- Turned
away by the Religious (his church)
Who was left for Judas to turn
to? In his mind, possibly no one. He had forsaken his church (for good reason)
to follow Jesus, yet now had forsaken his friends and Jesus for personal gain
(thirty pieces of silver). When he tried to return to his church (religious
leaders) they rejected him, and he could no longer find friendship with the
world (those who opposed Christ), the flesh (himself), or the devil (Satan
having previously possessed him). We do not know of his parents, siblings, or
possible friends at this time in his life, but most likely he left all to
follow Jesus.
Surely, Judas experienced:
sadness – unhappy,
grief, sorrow, mournful
Judas was truly mournful when he realized he had “betrayed
the innocent blood” (Jesus Christ). Grief had to have overshadowed him greatly
when the religious crowd refused to allow him to return the blood money. His
sorrows must have been great, feeling as though he could turn neither to the apostles
nor the religious leaders, nor any longer even unto Jesus Christ.
Sadness can come upon us in the blink of an eye, and sometimes
it can be very grievous and seem unbearable; especially if we have created it
ourselves and we see no quick way out of it. Hope can be lost, replaced with
depression.
gloom – full or partial
darkness, dim
There were those in England, such as George Cheyne in
1733, who believed the gloomy weather caused a “melancholy disposition” over
people which was partial to blame for the suicides of that time. Perhaps some
still consider this to be the case for certain persons even today. Do you feel
differently in gloomy weather?
In the emotional sense, we can feel as though we are likewise
in a storm, with darkness all around us, and no way to escape. Though we might
see light – a glimpse of hope – we may be afraid to take the leap, so we stay
in the shadows of fear and doubt. Till we lose all hope, and the pain overcomes
us so great we would even choose death to escape it.
In the spiritual sense, scripture contrast the light and
the darkness; whereas even partial darkness is full in condition. The darkness
blinds us to the hope in Christ, and we are left believing death is our only
escape.
The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye
be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. But if thine eye be evil, thy
whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be
darkness, how great is that darkness! No man can serve two masters: for either
he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and
despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon. [Matthew 6:22-24]
dejection – lowness of
spirits
There can be no doubt that Judas indeed had lowness of
spirit when his conscience confronted him with the realization of what he had
done, and being unable to undo it or make any penance by returning the money.
But, are these justifiable
reasons for one to take their own life? Jesus saith, “Come unto me, all ye that
labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” [Matthew 11:28] Is not
turning to suicide then turning away from Jesus and his call to find rest in
him? For, how can one truly say they are trusting in Christ if they allow the
things of this world and in their life to bring them to the point of suicide?
Are we not told to deny ourselves, take up our cross (daily), and follow Jesus
Christ? [Luke 9:23] To end one’s on life is denying God who made us and Christ
who gave himself for us; especially, if it truly be so that we are Professing
Christians.
So, what does God say about
suicide? At first glance, there may be some who believe the bible is silent on
the subject. It is true the word “suicide” is not present within scripture, but
that does not mean it is permissible or condoned by holy God. Is it truly
prudent to presume something is acceptable or excused merely because we do not
see or understand a direct command against it? Would we teach our children
such? Does “I didn’t know” or “You didn’t tell me” remove guilt or make one
innocent? We are not justified by ignorance.
If a soul commit a trespass, and sin through ignorance, in the holy things of the Lord; then he
shall bring for his trespass unto the Lord a ram without blemish out of the
flocks, with thy estimation by shekels of silver, after the shekel of the
sanctuary, for a trespass offering. [Leviticus 5:15]
Forasmuch then as we are the offspring of God, we ought
not to think that the Godhead is like unto gold, or silver, or stone, graven by
art and man's device. And the times of
this ignorance God winked at; but now commandeth all men every where to repent:
Because he hath appointed a day, in the which he will judge the world in
righteousness by that man whom he hath ordained; whereof he hath given
assurance unto all men, in that he hath raised him from the dead. [Acts
17:29-31]
The term “suicide” was conceived
by Sir Thomas Browne in his work Religio
Medici; whereby he appears to praise it. Before this time, suicide was known as self-murder or self-assassination, with two schools of thought being:
Religious
The individual was stealing from God, and leaving
themselves no time or means to repent before dying. It is the opposite of
perseverance and hope.
secular
The act “takes away all reason and virtue and all the
noble trial and satisfaction of them; so that on Principles of Nature itself,
it must be deemed utterly unlawful.” [John Henley]
In Exodus 20 and Deuteronomy 5 we
are given the law of God, with one being “Thou shalt not kill.” So, can suicide
be defined as self-killing? Is it not depriving one of life “in any manner”, to
bring about death? Does not suicide make the individual a murderer? By all
accounts it does.
By acknowledging suicide as what
it truly is – the murdering of oneself – it separates those of suicide and
those who are martyrs by definition. A martyr is one who willingly suffers
torment or even death, but not by their own hand – nor by their own hand
bringing it about, as in the cases of suicidal-murder. Some may see a fine line
between the two – at least in some cases – but the line is definitively there
nonetheless. One may claim that those who refuse to escape martyrdom are
likewise committing suicide, but such is not the case if their life is taken by
another. The murderer is the one who kills life, not the one from whom it is
taken.
What does scripture say of
murder?
Now the works of
the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication,
uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance,
emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I
tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit
the kingdom
of God. [Galatians
5:19-20]
1 John 3:15 tells us even one who
“hateth his brother is a murderer: and ye know that no murderer hath eternal life abiding in him.” This is not to say
that everyone who commits suicide hates themselves, but to show the severity of
hate and murder Christ brought about this point. Both can have eternal
consequences! For who is the “eternal life”? Jesus Christ [John 14:6]. And
murder brings forth death (the enemy of life).
“Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his.” [Romans
8:9b] To be “none of his” is to remain in one’s sin; a murderer. If we be his,
we are to “Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and
supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all
understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” [Philippians
4:6-7] We have help in Christ. Do not turn from it!
Here is what makes suicide the
greater sin, or disservice – if one wishes to define sin in levels of severity against
humanity. The killing of oneself is murder, and the very act removes the
opportunity for the individual to seek repentance of the sin and reconciliation
with God before meeting him face-to-face at either the Judgment Seat of Christ [Romans
14:10; 2 Corinthians 5:10] or the Great White Throne Judgment [Revelation 20:11-15].
We will not discuss the topic of these two judgments here, but we do know that
after death is “the judgment”. [Hebrews 9:27] That is our standing before the
Judge; for “every one of us shall give account of himself to God.” [Romans
14:12]
Now, I realize there are numerous
reasons why persons may commit suicide, and some may legitimately be due to
mental illness or other causes outside the scope of our study here. There is no
way to answer every question about suicide satisfactory, nor would it be fair
for me to condemn all souls to hell who have taken their own lives. Neither has
been my purpose.
Even so, before one quotes “Judge
not, that ye be not judged” [Matthew 7:1], let us remember scripture also
declares “Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment”
[John 7:24]; for “he that is spiritual judgeth all things” [1 Corinthians
2:15]. Who then is spiritual? Those who have the “the Spirit of God” and “the
mind of Christ”. [1 Corinthians 2]
For this reason, I would ask the
reader (even one who has been hurt by a loss or wishes to study suicide further)
to strive to consider any discussion or study of suicide objectively in light
of truth and not merely by emotion or justification for oneself or one’s family
or friends who may have taken their life. We cannot simply wish someone into
heaven, nor can we merely believe that God may not judge one for taking their
own life because we care about them, we believe they are a good person, or
would rather blame someone or something else. We must be honest with ourselves
and with each individual situation.
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever
things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure,
whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be
any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. [Philippians 4:8]
Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that
exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every
thought to the obedience of Christ; [2 Corinthians 10:5]
There have been those who have sought
to condone or even praise suicide for the sake of love (being unable to live
without someone) and honor (or the restoration thereof). Do these not yet then
become idols? A person, thing, or purpose which does supersede God in our
heart, soul, mind, or strength? Are we not commanded to “love the Lord thy God
with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all
thy strength”? [Mark 12:30]
If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and
mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own
life also, he cannot be my disciple. [Luke 14:26]
We understand this (that is
“hate” in this context) to not mean “murder” (whether in deed or motive) which
Christ did teach against, but rather likened unto all things must be secondary
in our lives to our love for God and Jesus Christ. Do we love someone more than
Christ, and only live for them; whereby we would desire death over living life
without them? What of honor in the eyes of man? Does it yet precede our obedience
to Christ and sacred honor before holy God? Shall we slay ourselves in seeking to
gain the honor of men and risk the curse of God?
Fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to
kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body
in hell. [Matthew 10:28]
Do we yet become lovers of our
own selves, desiring death over the loss of any pleasures of this life? Do we
have a form of godliness which helps our outward image, yet leaves those around
us at a loss when those things which we lived for no longer provide us with a
reason to live? Do the perilous times have us embracing death rather than life?
This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall
come. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud,
blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural
affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of
those that are good, Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than
lovers of God; Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from
such turn away. [2 Timothy 3:1-5]
Or have we become self-haters as
we look at ourselves in light of what we perceive to be reality (both physical
and spiritual)? Michel Montaigne believed “it is against nature for one to
despise oneself – a sickness peculiar to man and not seen in any other
creature” – and considered “self-hatred as a kind of vanity and writes that it
is by a similar vanity that we wish to become something other than we are.”
[Jennifer M. Hecht] Are we double minded? [James 1:8]
Within the Professing Church
(that is within the religious institutions rather than the world, as some would
say), there may be found what has been called “Religious Melancholy”; namely
the idea that spiritual leaders have caused many to think there is no hope for
them. Robert Burton (The Anatomy of
Melancholy) claims ministers (though, surely not all) go about “making
every small fault and thing indifferent an irremissible offence, they so rent,
tear, and wound men’s consciences that they are almost mad and at their wit’s
ends.”
Do we lower salvation so low that
it is merely trampled by every man’s foot, or raise it so high that it is
impossible for any man to obtain it even through grace? Do we discard the
fallen brethren or seek to restore them? Do we love because God loved us? Do we
forgive because God forgave us? Or, do we “beholdest thou the mote that is in [our]
brother's eye, but considerest not the beam that is in [our] own eye”? [Matthew
7:3]
Some (to promote martyrdom, yet
not all) have even determined to liken the self-murder of persons with the
sacrifice of Jesus Christ on the cross at Calvary, claiming he actually committed
suicide himself; for he did say, “I lay down my life for the sheep.” [John
10:15] But, perhaps not all of the story is being observed:
And other sheep I have, which are not of this fold: them
also I must bring, and they shall hear my voice; and there shall be one fold,
and one shepherd. Therefore doth my
Father love me, because I lay down my life, that I might take it again. No
man taketh it from me, but I lay it down of myself. I have power to lay it
down, and I have power to take it again. This
commandment have I received of my Father. [John 10:16-18]
Jesus says a couple of
interesting things here:
- Therefore
doth my Father love me, because I lay down my life, that I might take it
again.
- This
commandment have I received of my Father.
How many persons who have
committed suicide claim:
- I
was commanded by God.
- I
lay down my life – why? That I might take it again.
People do not commit suicide (at
least, not that I know of or have read about) that they might take back up
their life yet again. Sadly, most are due to them no longer wanting anything to
do with their life; whether due to love (or the loss thereof), honor (or the
restoration thereof), depression, or mental illness. Death is seen as an end,
as an escape from that which plagues one spiritually, emotionally, or
physically. There is no man (or woman) who has the “power to take it (their
life) again”.
John records Jesus’ words, “Greater
love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.”
[John 15:13]
He goes on to say:
Ye are my friends,
if ye do whatsoever I command you. Henceforth I call you not servants; for
the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth: but I have called you friends; for all things that I have heard of my
Father I have made known unto you. Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen
you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your
fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he
may give it you. These things I command
you, that ye love one another.” [John 14:14-17]
Death was not the reason for
Christ laying down his life. Death is not the reason why one is to lay down
their life for their friends. Love is the reason. Jesus Christ chose to suffer
the cross because he loved God the Father in obedience, and because he loves
mankind in giving us forgiveness of sin and entrance into eternity with him by
his sacrifice. When you hear stories of soldiers giving themselves (laying down
their lives) for fellow soldiers, it is not because they want to die (to take
their own lives) but rather desire to save their friends (that they may live!).
Neither our life nor our death can pay our sin debt. Jesus did that which we
could not so that we may live!
Judas did not commit self-murder
(lay down his life) for his friends or Christ, nor because of love for either.
Neither did he do so to take up his life yet again. It appears more so for a
love of himself. A final act of selfishness. I realize some may discount this, but
one must consider it.
Love: to have a strong liking or devotion for.
- [compare
also Latin libēre (originally lubēre) to
please]
Selfish: to be more concerned with one’s own welfare, etc. than another’s.
Judas did not show love toward
the other Eleven (or the many other disciples) or for Christ in his betrayal,
but rather in regards to his own greed or personal purpose. He did not lay down
his life that his fellow believers or Christ would live, but instead to escape
his current predicament and/or feelings. Is that not likewise why many (I will
not say all) suicides occur? Because they no longer want to feel the pain (or
what it is they are feeling) or be exposed to what is going on within or around
them (whether people, circumstances, or consequences past, present, or future)?
Is it not more about self than others?
Some press that suicide restores
(or brings about) honor to one (or one’s family) who has disgraced themselves
(or their family), but do we see such honor restored in Judas’ hanging himself?
Would it have not been more honorable (moral) to confess, repent, and make
restitution by living the rest of his life as a disciple of Jesus Christ?
Was not Paul forgiven for
persecuting Jesus [Acts 9:5; 26:14] (while yet religious) in the sense that he
did persecute the body of Christ [1 Corinthians 12], yet did repent and go
forth as an apostle of Jesus Christ for the rest of his days? How many were
persuaded to trust in the Messiah, the Savior, because of the life and witness
of Paul?
Could not Judas Iscariot have
possibly been given this honor had he lived, even as Peter who did yet deny the
Lord thrice? Sadly, we shall never know. Just as we shall never know the
positive, honorable impact (both great and small) so many souls could have had
on individuals and society had they lived to tell their story instead of taking
their own lives.
What will your story tell? Surely
more than your suicide would.
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